Choosing the right path...

Let me see... Today is a new day and my situation in school hasn't changed a single bit... Well, there is this girl with her group of friends calls me piggy... Well, I cannot blame them... I am fat... The irony over here is, she herself is fat... If not, much more fatter than me... What is that supposed to mean? I am so gonna tell her to look into the mirror if I ever hear her say that again... I think her name is Yanya... Seriously... I think she really has to think twice about name calling when it involes pigs...

Ok... The whole entry today shan't be devoted to her... Not worth my time and effort... See the entry title? Choosing the right path... What can I possibly mean by that? You might all be asking... Well... In actual fact, I have something to say about the matter... I have come to realise that the only way to really solve a problem is to actually not keep to yourself but to have other people to have a say in it... Of cos that other person has to be your good friend or at least a person you can confide in...

Let me ask... What do you people usually do when you get yourself into trouble or problems? I can say I will always start to panic and then think of a way to get myself out of it... Be it by lying my way out... I will try my best to get out of it... Yes... Its bad doing that... But I make mistakes... I am human... Well... Sometimes I do get away scott-free but most of the time... Yeah... I get screwed... Big time... Haha... I am actually glad I can laugh at this myself... Things that I get caught for are like sneaking out of the house to play pool, which happened just recently... or things like not doing homework... This are all actually minor stuff... What big trouble are are stuffs that involves the society and police...

Usually, friends are the source of mischief and troubles... But what are friends actually? Are friends suppose to hurt you and make you do things that hurt others? Or are friends suppose to work together and support each other till they reach their common goal? Rhetorical question isn't it? Yeah... Most of you would choose the second one... But all of you seriously think hard... What are your friends like? Do they force you to do things that brings harm unto others? Or do they bring harm unto you? I would daringly say... Friends like this I sure do not want... Why should there be suffering in others due to your friends fun and laughter? Is it justifiable that others suffer just for your feeling of joy?

Many of you might wanna ask... What is the thing that can be done that incur so much damage and sufferings? Good question... I am talking about things like due to peer pressure, people start to smoke, consume drugs, join gangs, fight, arson or even sex... Scary isn't it? But its true.. There are such things happening out there... Teens are the kind of people which our parents cannot understand... Well... sad thing is, I cannot understand them too... Neither can I understand myself... Haha...

Let's talk about the kind of problems and the kind of trouble you can get into... Dun worry.. I wun touch on all, but the ones I think that is important...

Smoking and drugs... What is wrong with this? Well... Firstly, I hate smoking... I dun hate the people... But I would like them even better if they did not smoke... Smoking is so smelly... The smell of smoke just nauseating and it harms the body... Let us see what kind of terminal illness it can give to a smoker... Lung cancer, mouth cancer, throat cancer, in short... Death... Another thing... Second hand smokers beware... They have a higher chance of getting lung cancer than the smoker itself... What is this?! People die because of something they didn't do... Kinda unfair isn't it? Next is drugs... Why would people take drugs I really do not know... They like jumping off buildings thinking that they can fly? What do they get in the end? Smashed skull, limbs flying miles away from their body... Blood... Yeah... Death... Doing both results in death... Just a matter of a slow and painful death or a quick and still painful death... What is the point here?

Arson... I cannot really talk much about this... But why do people wanna deface public property? Fun? Exciting? Thrilling? Or just to show their stupidity? Depriving of people to enjoy a facility everytime they burn someplace... Might kill or injure people too... Is that act justifiable?

Lastly... Sex or rather sexual assault... Now the society is getting more and more educated... There is a tendency to abuse the knowledge learnt... Girls had better beware... Especially to those who usually go to discoteque... (wonder if is spelt correctly...) The most simple way is to spike your drink... Easy... There will be no change in both colour or taste in the drink... Effect is fast because its alcoholic... If the girls get too easy with guys... Letting them touch all over and ending up having sexual intercourse... They will just get pregnant... Things dun end that way... Parents will hate you... You will feel sad... I mean... Suicidal thoughts might just easily pop into your stupid head...

After all this... It only leads to one word... Suffering... Why people wanna do this to make themself suffer? I do not know the reason too... There is however a way to save yourself if you are willing to continue reading... haha... Seriously... If you people have done any of this before, sit down and think really hard... How do you want your life to be? Suffering? Or just a simple and normal one where you can at least be happy? Like I said... Friends that bring harm to both you and the society, I can do without them... They wanna ruin their own lives, let them do it...

So people... The choice is finally in your own hands... All I can do is put some sense into your thick skull... I cannot possibly pull you by the ear and force you to change... That will still not work unless you yourself is willing to change... Seriously think through what I have said... You might not agree with me, but this entry I hope to change some thought in you...

Sit down and really think what you want in life... Only then the doors to happiness can be opened... And like I always say... Happiness is the best feeling in the world...

All that has been happening...

Hmmmz... From my pervious entry, I can almost tell how my blog is faring... Bad... No one visits my damn blog!!! Why? Why is that so? I mean... I asked for opinions and there isn't any one tagging at all... manz... This sucks... Totally... Never mind about this stuff... Let me comfort myself that there is at least one reader... That is me! Yay! See.. My readership has increased... I dun usually read my stuff... However in dire times like this, I have to read my own stuff... Soon I will be tagging my own board and talking to myself... Isn't that just great?

Anyways... So much have happened ever since I started attending Millennia Institute... Let me tell you more about how I am here... Well, to say truthfully, somehow or rather I am not enjoying it quite alot... People here is not really nice... I dun really like my classmates because I find them childish... Sigh... I am now in school and I am pluaged by some trouble... Shan't talk about that...

I dun have much to say right now... So I think I will end here... For people out there who is plauged by a problem... Sit down and think what is it you want in life? I think you will get your answers... Also weigh the consequeces of your decision... You will find your path...

Nothing more can beat the feeling of happiness... Try it...

Is looks really that important?

Let me start this blog with something official... I have given up the race for Ricca... Yes... I do still love her... I will still continue to do whatever I can for her... Its the least I can do to make it up for my shabby treatment towards her in the past... All I want now is for her to be happy... So now all of you know the situation... So please do not be ignorant and keep talking about it in front of me... I am trying to move on so please help instead of rubbing salt to the wound...

On to the main thing... I jus got back from playing pool with Lonnie... Well... Met up with Maybelin and three of us walked from Serangoon Gardens to my house... Lonnie parted first as we passed by his house first, leaving me and Maybelin to walk alone... I was asking her some personal stuff... Then I asked if I am really such a lousy boyfriend... The first thing she said was to tell me to go on a diet... Yes.. I am fat... The world is realistic place... People who look nice are more preferred...

This I wanna ask all of you... Is looks really that important? If it is, then wouldn't the ugly and fat people like me be single for their whole life? If Ricca had really dumped me because of the fact that I am ugly, she would have done it right after we got together... What does that really show? I really am pondering over this very seriosuly... Will I be left on the self and never be taken again? I wonder...

So... Anyone who is reading this... Do make an effort and leave a comment whether looks are important and why? I really need someone the create a miracle and answer for me... Please.... I need to know...

To Diana: Hey gal... really glad that you are coming back soon... I did miss you... Did not hear your voice for so long... You said there is this boy you like... Well... Dun hesitate to call and ask me for help ok? I will be there for you like for all my other friends... Do remember to stay happy... Dun live in regrets like I did... Best advice I can give to all the poeple in the world... Cheer up okz?

Please tell me... Beauty is just a superficial thing... Can it last as long as a character of a person?

Yay!

There really isn't much to blog about... except that I have gotten a new handphone!!! You can now contact me by phone anywhere!!!

81238231

Nice number huh? Yeah... I know... Well.. people... Blog some time later... do remember to tag me ok?

Yay! I am elated...

How fragile life can be... This I really have to say to you...

Life is indeed fragile... Just look at the recent catastrophe... Look at how much lives it had claimed... Life is indeed fragile... The people were never given a chance to escape... They did not even know what hit them... Just a larger than usual tide came in and they left this earthly place... Just imagine... Your life being washed away by a tidal wave... Its not the water that kills you... But its the impact of the tidal wave pushing you into an object... I can almost just feel the pain going through their body... Ouch!

Life is really fragile when you really sit down and think about it... No one knows what will happen in the future... Who knows I might just be involed in an accident tomorrow? I might just die of an attempted robbery... Who really knows? A life is so precious... It is often treasured after it is lost... People just seem to take things for granted like I have took her for too... Only after she had left then did I start to realize how important she is to me...

I was worried sick about her when she was in Indonesia during the crisis... I kept SMS-ing her... Asking if she was alright and tell her to come back fast... I really was going crazy at that period of time... I was constantly praying for her safety... I was on the verge of breaking down when I recieved an sms that went like this...

" Wx. There is a lot of water here... Everything is flooded and the airport is flooded too... I dun think I can come back anytime soon..."

When I got that, I was both elated and sad... Elated that I heard from her... Sad that she is stranded on that water logged place and couldn't come back... Little did I know that she had tricked me... She lied to me that it was flooding in Jakarta... Haha! I am such a fool... But I really am glad that she made it back to Singapore... This indeed shows us how precious life can be especially when it is someone you love...

Ricca, this I wanna tell you... Life is fragile... I do not know what will happen to me next... But I want you to know this... I love you... I want to say it all out before it is too late and I might regret... I love you so much that I am willing to sacrifice my life for you... If I could be given just one more chance... I will make it up to you so much... Day by day, the hope in me seems to decline little by little... I will not let it die out... Just like my torch that I am holding for you... Even in the strongest storm, it will not die out... Love you...

Life is really fragile and precious... It is never too late to say "I love you" to your loved ones now...