One year ago

On the very same day, one year ago, at this very moment, I was at P. Tekong lying down on the bed and wondering how army was going to be like.

On this very day, I celebrate my one year anniversary being in the SAF. Just one more bloody year to go before I hear the three letters that most young adults want to hear. ORD. I can still remember the training days at BMT. Ah~ Takes me back a little. It was hell but yet fun. Everyone else was suffering with you and somehow, it feels somewhat less horrendous than it's supposed to be.

After all that crap I've been through, POP came and it felt almost surreal. I was glad yet sad that I have to leave my SGTs and sir's. I am no longer in the comfort zone where punishment was just as simple as doing push ups anymore. Now, every single mistake we make, its all about signing extra guard duties and with a little luck, maybe SOL or DB. I shan't bother explaining all the abbreviations. Too lazy to and have been asked once too many times.

Looking back at the pictures taken during POP made me realise that army is not that terrible at all. It has its share of fun as well as its share of crap where all of us has to take in one way or the other. Long gone are the days where SGT and Sir punish us for no apparent reason. In comparison to the past, army has certainly been better. When the older generation tells you how scary army is, tell them that they are fucking talking crap and then enter your passageway to adulthood and experience it yourself.

Anyways, was supposed to post these pictures up when I POP, but I am a tad bit too late. So, here it is now. Enjoy. This is Wei Xin signing off for the night and there's only 1 more year to go. Hang in there!



Pardon the lousy quality.

The perfect girl

Isn't it every guy's dream to meet that perfect girl? The one with looks so good that you start to wonder if your eyes are looking at a mirage. The one with a body so hot that you might instantaneously combust into nothingness if you stand too near her. Or perhaps the one with the intellect that would blow you (one way or the other) away when you converse with her. The one with the heart so kind that you are half expecting to see a halo radiating with light above her head.

I am sure most guys would want that in the girl he really really likes. But let us leave this folklore about the perfect girl which in case you guys do not know, does not exist at all, and return to this harsh cold reality where girls are more, erm, normal.

What I am about to describe are the attributes that would make an almost perfect girl to MY liking. I will not be far fetched and say things impossible for people to actually achieve. Rather keeping it down to earth so I might be able to actually find such a girl. If anyone watched, "The Ugly Truth", they mentioned that all guys are so sex driven and that is all they want in a girl, I would dare say that its crap and not so true at all. Hey, I ain't proclaiming that I am gay nor am I trying to prove that I am one level above the so called male species. In fact, I admit to thinking about sex most of the times. It is just that I don't show it. What I am trying to say is that as much as females are looking for love in a romance, we males are looking for the same thing too. Then again, it is just a movie, so I am not going to argue much on this whole "man are sex-hungry monsters" thing.

On to my list of attributes that would contribute to the ALMOST perfect girl (again), to MY liking.

1. I like all things cute. There isn't a need for my perfect girl to be ridiculously beautiful. She just has to be cute. Of cos, being beautiful is a bonus. (Does this explain anything? Lol~)

2. No short hair please.

3. Able to converse intelligently. I don't need you to speak to me about quantum mechanics or shit like these. Just being able to perfectly bring across your point and have constructing arguments, I am very much interested in you already.

4. Ability to withstand the fact that most of my friends are girls and that you will never restrict me from hanging out with them due to your jealousy or insecurity.

5. Please. Do. Not. Defy. Logic.

See. 5 simple rules is all it takes to be my almost perfect girl. LOL~

But then again, I don't expect everyone to be like that. Besides, being in love is all about accepting the flaws and finding the perfection in others rather than loving them for their perfection. In case you are wondering why the sudden post, it is to address someone who asked me such a question.

Long week ahead. I wish those who are having exams now the best and make sure to aim for the top! Woosh! Took me quite a while to come up with something like that. Haha~

Should I or should I not?

I have been wanting to take up boxing for quite some time. Yes you heard me. I don't mean boxing as in puting someone or something in a box but rather the sport BOXING where you punch the bejabbers out of someone.

Before you start bursting out at how I will be a punching bag to others most of the time, I really wanted to take up some sport and some kind of martial art. So, anyone interested? Maybe we can go to the boxing gym and make some new friends and learn a new skill.

Haha~

New skin

Ok. This shall be a very short post although it has been a while since I blogged.

I just changed the outlook to something more nice looking until I find some unknowing victim to help me make a customised skin. This new outlook will also mark my return to the blogsphere as I will definitely be coming here more often now.

Till then people. Have fun and try not to miss me too much. I still love you guys. :)

*Barfs at my own words.* Urgh!

Ups and downs

Recently, my life is full of ups and downs. Ok. So there's more down than up. But still, its not something to get me down so easily. Although I do admit on some occasion, I get really uptight and feel as though I am going to implode due to all these pent up feelings inside me. I guess you can say I can pretty much pull off a poker face even though I had like a real fucked up day. With a little more effort, I am certain I can still smile at you like I just won the lottery.

But still, there are certain things that just can't seem to get out of my life. Many a times, I have fooled even myself into thinking that all is fine but only to realise that the problem isn't going to magically go away. Yes I know it is cowardly of me to run from problems, but hey, I am sure you do too. So don't start being judgemental towards me. Many would think that I have an abundance of friends to hear and help me out. That is true, but by engaging them, it would mean there will be repercussions.

As much as I want to confide in someone close to me, I also want someone whom I do not know at all and I can tell that person as much as I want without having to worry about what might happen after that. Perhaps a way to get everything off my chest. Be it small little things like how much I hate someone at work to bigger things like how I really feel for someone. I just wish that everything can be temporarily be gotten off off me.

Someone once told me that words are cheap. I have to prove it by actions. I solemly agree. Therefore, very soon, I shall make my words turn into actions to prove my points. Never again will I be described as someone whom throw words only.

-News Flash-

I just recieved an sms. As usual, small little things like these hurt me as well. Makes me feel that no matter what effort I have put in is gone to waste. However, you will not know because I would never tell you how I really feel towards your actions. You might ask, but still you will not know. No matter how you badger me. In fact, I suppose no one will know. I won't tell anyone ever. One thing I have learnt in life is that, if you want to keep a secret, tell no one. Not a single living or dead soul. Keep it to yourself until you die or you decided that it shouldn't be a secret no more.

So everything here pretty much sums up how crappy I really feel in these few days or perhaps weeks to come. I am happy about one thing though. My best friend is back in town to celebrate my 21st. I feel that this is the only thing that is keeping my spirits up or else I would have broken down long ago. Seems like I would have to thank her for helping me. Haha!

This place has become a place of bitching for me as of late

Quite a number of issues have been bugging me. As of now, I am at some god forsaken camp which is located near a bunch of dead bodies buried six feet under. This camp is so secluded that even the dead souls nearby wouldn't even wanna come in. To top it off, I am fitted into a group where I am so misplaced. I used to be able to respect people that are not socially accepted people. But it has occured to me that most of them are just plain stupid, childish and just all talk. Especially when they band together and make you feel like you are an outcast when it is really them who can't grow up and think logically.

I know I shouldn't get bothered by it, but it is kind of difficult when you know you have to face them for the rest of 2 years. I know how they always say, "If you can't beat em`, join them.
" But I don't wanna turn stupid and childish! I still want to keep my sanity intact and be able to logically figure out what 1 + 1 equals to.

All that is just the military part of my life. On a happy note, things there are quite relaxed and slow paced. I quite like the instructors there. That is pretty much about the thing I like about that place. Haha!

On a side note, Lin and I had a conversation.

If subject A feels that in a duration of a month felt like a year had just passed by, would time had pass by fast or has it slowed down for him?

What are all your answers?

Updating so you pussies can get off my back

I am serving my nation now. Currently getting my crappy ass up at 5.20 a.m every day just to make my way to an institute where I learn how to strip a humongous tank apart and then lubricating it, all just for the fun of it.

Many things have happened and some things just NEVER change. Like how certain people can't seem to get off your back even though you are of a certain age. Or how when they command or reprimand you without and logical reason. Very much like in the army, where they ask you to sign extra and explain yourself later irregardless of how valid your excuse is. But hey, who am I to argue? I just learn how they act and later pin it on them when I use it back on them. After all, its all about learning from the ones whom are supposed to lead you.

Not to mention many tend to do things without thinking about other people's feelings. Selfish might be the appropriate word. If the things you do seem to inconvinience others, I suggest you stay the fuck far far away from me. I cannot stand people like you neither do I want to even try because the very basis of morality is to have the common sense to do things that wouldn't even trouble people.

I have said too much perhaps. Will continue to rant some other time as I can feel immense pressure right now to coerce me to get off the terminal. One last point to note, people take it for granted that the place where I am most of the time, has lots of things to do and therefore I should not occupy myself with just one thing.

(If you are able to understand what the writer has just wrote, you probably know him well and are regarded as a very good friend. If you don't seem to understand, don't worry, the writer is just as bewildered as you are.)

Ok. So I am quite an ass.

I must sincerely apologise. Yet again, I broke my promise of blogging weekly. Believe me. I have been spending weekends at the computer and blogger's website thinking of what to write. However, whenever I type to a certain point, I start to get writer's block and then have no idea how to continue.

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Ok. This is where I admit, I am just too fucking lazy. Will update you people on some NS politics when I am done with CNY. The festive season is just sapping my energy away.