Sigh... The great big O's is over and now my life is wandering aimlessly... For the past few days I have only slept for like.... maybe 5 hours? I have been playing like crazy... I seriously mean crazy.... Sleeping 5 hours only in two days... Been meeting up with friends to play pool, go LAN gaming and so much more... Sometimes I wonder if I am able to stay at this lifestyle forever? How I wish it does not end... But as they all say, all good things must come to an end so let me enjoy my life now...
I am actually for once kinda bored now... Two post in two days... So much time to spare... Let me talk about forgiveness... I have actually seen so many people saying that they forgive them and then be friends again... What is forgiveness actually? Is it that when a friend does something wrong apologises and then you forgive him and be friends once more? Most of you would probably say yes... we should all be friends once more after I have forgiven him... Somehow or rather, I beg to differ...
Before I continue on, I want all of you to fully understand that I am not trying to break friendship or any relationship here... What I am about to say is not a solution to all problems... You do not have to follow what I say cos your life is in your own hands and all I am trying to do here is discuss about something which I feel strongly about...
OK! Moving on, forgiveness, like I said is not that you still have to be friends after you forgive a person... Let me state one example... You have a very good friend... One day he had sexually abused you... How would you girls feel? Obviously you would hate the guy to the core... Then, one day, you finally decide to forgive him... Does it mean you have to be friends with him? Let me tell you what forgiveness in my case is all about... Forgiveness is to release yourself from the past that is you are clinging on... When you forgive a person, you are not sending him a message that you want to be friends again but to tell him that you refuse to be imprisoned down by the past... Forgiveness is to help you get over the ordeal of feeling anger, agitation and hatred... Feeling all that "sucks" all the energy out of you... Sooner or later you will feel tired and what is the point of feeling hatred? ( I am wondering... Do you all understand me? I am like rattling on and on... haha..)
Of cos, not all things that hurt us is as serious as this and minor porblems can be solved easily when both party decides to work together... If you can salvage your friendship, do so... Cos having a friend is better than not having any... I am sure all of your friends have at least done something wrong to you at least once... You cannot possibly break your friendship with all of them...
I refuse to be imprisoned by you and my past... I wanna be free of all burdens and live a life of my own...
A closure of a chapter in my life...
Yes! The GCE O' Level is finally over!!! There is so many people I wanna thank... But... Let me start this entry in a proper manner...
Finally... The difficult and stupid ordeal has passed... I am free from the clutches of the Exam papers... The last paper was Chemistry... Sad to say... It was kinda easy... Thought they would set some difficult paper... After all, it is the dragon year... So... After the paper, I went straight home and changed into my outing clothes and went to Hougang Plaza to play LAN with Stanley and Lon... Decided to play Runescape together but ended up playing counter strike instead... I kinda got carried away and forgot to call Ricca... Was supposed to ask her out to play pool but by the time i called her, it was too late... She got angry with me... ( can't blame her... I always make her angry...) Ricca... You sent the sms that said you were at fault... No... You are NOT at fault... I am... I still cannot change... I am still an ignorant fool and I wil make it up to you...
Then after LAN, went home and started using the computer until now... Time now is 5.38 in the morning... ( Mom and Dad are overseas... That's why i can use the computer until so late...) Went online and saw so many green people on my Msn list... Chatted till now then I decided to update my blog... Lazy huhz? Well, I have so much time to spare now... Only wishing that i have that problem with money... I need to go find a job... Anyone? Help me find one?
Now that the O's is over, I have so many people to thank... Let me think and go by alphabetical order...
Ms Angela Chan--- My favourite Chinese teacher! Thank you for helping me in my biggest failing subject... I am able to pass, thanks to you! I enjoyed your lessons as they are interesting and not boring at all... Your jovial character always brighten up my day... But I fear you on those days when you come into our class with a scowl on your face... Thank you for your help and sorry that I do not do your homework...
Ms Daphne Lim--- Thank you for all the times you were there for my class when we are feeling down... You are a very caring and understanding teacher... Your words never fail to brighten up my day when I am feeling low and your enthusiasm always gets me going for better results! Thank you! One thing bothers me though... What is your chinese name?
Ms Fann Kang--- I have yet found the opportuinity to thank you directly... Thank you for calling my dad at the start of this year... Or else I do not know what I am now... You are the one who help me up when I am at my lowest... I thank you for that... Although you taught me for only quite a brief moment, you made a great difference in my life... Thank you!
Laraine--- My Chemistry tuition teacher... Thank you so much in aiding me in my work... I know I sometimes do not take your work seriously... Sorry for that... Thank you for coming to my house at the time slot I want and I always cancel my tuition at the last moment... Hope I did not cause you too much trouble... This lady over here knows her stuff especially for Chemistry... She is like a walking encyclopedia and she can clarify your doubts right on the spot... You all should consider hiring her as your tuition teacher... ( Call me for her contact...) Thank you so much for everything!!
Phoonie--- This guy is my friend cum teacher... He has quit being my school teacher and sometimes I just wonder what to call him... Phoonie? Mr Phoon? Or Anthony? Anyways, I wanna thank you for helping to cure my disease of laziness... I still remember the time where I am outside the class looking at you and the entire class... Kinda like looking at a bunch of animals... You really have helped me alot... Aided me in my work and told me which path I should take in my life... I will never forget this sentence... " Life is about meeting people's expectations..." You are so right on that... Thank you!
Raymond Loh--- Ah... My favourite Math tuition teacher... I have tried many tuition teacher, but this guy is the best... He knows his stuff well and is more worried than me for my O's... To my friends out there... He really is a good A-math and E-math tuition teacher... If you have a sibling who is weak in math, consider sending him to Raymond... ( Ask me for his number...) Although his house is a little far... But he is worth the trouble... Trust me... Oh yeah... almost fogot to thank him... haha... Thank you so much! My time with you wasn't considered long however, I throughly enjoyed all my lessons... You never had one boring lesson... I feel very sad that we have to "part"... How I wished I could stay for one more year but that would mean I have to retain... haha... Dun worry... I will keep in contact with you... Thank you for all your help!
Ms Shim--- Hmm... You taught us only for half a year and I learned alot from you... Not only academically but also morally... Lesson learned is... Never be sacarstic to a math teacher... I apprecitate that you called my parents when I did not do my work but I can do less with the slapping on the face... I admit... I did start to slack after Phoonie left... So thank you for "reminding" my dad that I should not be lazy... Thank you for everything!
Mr Siva--- Headmaster of S.S ( Slacking Sivaians) You also did not teach me for long... What I have learned from you however, is alot! Thank you for the times when you helped me with my compositions and made me reaized what my common mistakes are.... Thank you for your great help!
To all other teachers--- Thank you for your help... Throughout my 4 years of life in Peicai, you all have given me tons of help... thank you for passing on your knowledge to me... I thnak you all from the bottom of my heart...
That wraps up today's entry... going to sleep now... so tired... time now is 6.24 in the morning... Going to havoc with Ricca by playing pool tomorrow...
Problem now... How am I going to get the teachers and tuition teachers to read this entry?
Finally... The difficult and stupid ordeal has passed... I am free from the clutches of the Exam papers... The last paper was Chemistry... Sad to say... It was kinda easy... Thought they would set some difficult paper... After all, it is the dragon year... So... After the paper, I went straight home and changed into my outing clothes and went to Hougang Plaza to play LAN with Stanley and Lon... Decided to play Runescape together but ended up playing counter strike instead... I kinda got carried away and forgot to call Ricca... Was supposed to ask her out to play pool but by the time i called her, it was too late... She got angry with me... ( can't blame her... I always make her angry...) Ricca... You sent the sms that said you were at fault... No... You are NOT at fault... I am... I still cannot change... I am still an ignorant fool and I wil make it up to you...
Then after LAN, went home and started using the computer until now... Time now is 5.38 in the morning... ( Mom and Dad are overseas... That's why i can use the computer until so late...) Went online and saw so many green people on my Msn list... Chatted till now then I decided to update my blog... Lazy huhz? Well, I have so much time to spare now... Only wishing that i have that problem with money... I need to go find a job... Anyone? Help me find one?
Now that the O's is over, I have so many people to thank... Let me think and go by alphabetical order...
Ms Angela Chan--- My favourite Chinese teacher! Thank you for helping me in my biggest failing subject... I am able to pass, thanks to you! I enjoyed your lessons as they are interesting and not boring at all... Your jovial character always brighten up my day... But I fear you on those days when you come into our class with a scowl on your face... Thank you for your help and sorry that I do not do your homework...
Ms Daphne Lim--- Thank you for all the times you were there for my class when we are feeling down... You are a very caring and understanding teacher... Your words never fail to brighten up my day when I am feeling low and your enthusiasm always gets me going for better results! Thank you! One thing bothers me though... What is your chinese name?
Ms Fann Kang--- I have yet found the opportuinity to thank you directly... Thank you for calling my dad at the start of this year... Or else I do not know what I am now... You are the one who help me up when I am at my lowest... I thank you for that... Although you taught me for only quite a brief moment, you made a great difference in my life... Thank you!
Laraine--- My Chemistry tuition teacher... Thank you so much in aiding me in my work... I know I sometimes do not take your work seriously... Sorry for that... Thank you for coming to my house at the time slot I want and I always cancel my tuition at the last moment... Hope I did not cause you too much trouble... This lady over here knows her stuff especially for Chemistry... She is like a walking encyclopedia and she can clarify your doubts right on the spot... You all should consider hiring her as your tuition teacher... ( Call me for her contact...) Thank you so much for everything!!
Phoonie--- This guy is my friend cum teacher... He has quit being my school teacher and sometimes I just wonder what to call him... Phoonie? Mr Phoon? Or Anthony? Anyways, I wanna thank you for helping to cure my disease of laziness... I still remember the time where I am outside the class looking at you and the entire class... Kinda like looking at a bunch of animals... You really have helped me alot... Aided me in my work and told me which path I should take in my life... I will never forget this sentence... " Life is about meeting people's expectations..." You are so right on that... Thank you!
Raymond Loh--- Ah... My favourite Math tuition teacher... I have tried many tuition teacher, but this guy is the best... He knows his stuff well and is more worried than me for my O's... To my friends out there... He really is a good A-math and E-math tuition teacher... If you have a sibling who is weak in math, consider sending him to Raymond... ( Ask me for his number...) Although his house is a little far... But he is worth the trouble... Trust me... Oh yeah... almost fogot to thank him... haha... Thank you so much! My time with you wasn't considered long however, I throughly enjoyed all my lessons... You never had one boring lesson... I feel very sad that we have to "part"... How I wished I could stay for one more year but that would mean I have to retain... haha... Dun worry... I will keep in contact with you... Thank you for all your help!
Ms Shim--- Hmm... You taught us only for half a year and I learned alot from you... Not only academically but also morally... Lesson learned is... Never be sacarstic to a math teacher... I apprecitate that you called my parents when I did not do my work but I can do less with the slapping on the face... I admit... I did start to slack after Phoonie left... So thank you for "reminding" my dad that I should not be lazy... Thank you for everything!
Mr Siva--- Headmaster of S.S ( Slacking Sivaians) You also did not teach me for long... What I have learned from you however, is alot! Thank you for the times when you helped me with my compositions and made me reaized what my common mistakes are.... Thank you for your great help!
To all other teachers--- Thank you for your help... Throughout my 4 years of life in Peicai, you all have given me tons of help... thank you for passing on your knowledge to me... I thnak you all from the bottom of my heart...
That wraps up today's entry... going to sleep now... so tired... time now is 6.24 in the morning... Going to havoc with Ricca by playing pool tomorrow...
Problem now... How am I going to get the teachers and tuition teachers to read this entry?
Sorry for the inconvenience caused
Due to my DAMN FUCKING LOUSY computer... I am sorry to say that I will not be able to blog until the problem has been rectified...
Seems like someone up there DOES not like me and is plotting against me.... Therefore I shall consider giving up blogging and there shall be less troubles...
You guys will be better off surfing PORN and wanking to the damn computers...
I will be back unless you can fix the damn com for me...
Seems like someone up there DOES not like me and is plotting against me.... Therefore I shall consider giving up blogging and there shall be less troubles...
You guys will be better off surfing PORN and wanking to the damn computers...
I will be back unless you can fix the damn com for me...